Have I had too much of a good thing?

"Hello everyone, I am a compulsive addictor to....boys. Yes that is what you heard, I have an addiction to attractive hot men. Man hunting is my #1 hobby and I do it quite often. Always looking for the hottest, nicest, most intelligent, you name it. I would rather flirt with hot men all day than work, go to school, shop, hell even eat. Well, please don't judge but that is my addiction."

"Welcome B. We will help you fight this addiction"

I wish. I need to attend an addictions course, but I'm pretty sure they don't make anything for men addictions. I think they call those girls whores, but I am not a whore thank you very much. I look and sometimes touch and pretty much always kiss (at least! come on..) but I will not skank out for a good looking chum. ;) Keep that in line ladies, no skanking out if you want to be taken seriously.

So here is my serious problem--> I've just been introduced to a wonderful guy...I know what you're thinking, 'What about T??' Well T can suck it cause I don't deal with Mr. Ignoring come get me type of boys. I need to be chased, otherwise I tend to loose interest. If T starts a' chasing maybe we'll talk, but until then, I'm on the prowel.

So this new character's name is JB we'll call him. Met him through my friend C. C is a good friend and said he wanted to set me up with JB. I was hesitant and said 'please no one too dousche-y..' haha. I didn't know who this guy was. Anyways, do you ever just meet someone and you think, 'wow this seems too good to be true'? He seems very normal, graduated in 09' w zoology and chemistry (impressive, that's what I thought too) and is currently pursuing a CFA. WOW is all I can say. First off, I melt for attractive graduated guys..they've already met a great goal and I love to see how determined/persistant a guy is when looking for a new job to satisfy his career. I think this is the best time I could have met him too. Fresh out of a relash this spring..enough time to get over it..and because he's looking for a new job, who's to say he isn't looking for a new girl? haha. Well maybe I'm getting ahead of myself here. I'm meeting up with him tomorrow for labby's mug night hopefully..he'll just have to call me first. Ahhh my hearts on fire right now with all of these great potential guys <3 I feel like I'm on the bachelorette and have many boyfriends and now all I need to do is narrow it down the the right one. JB, will you accept this rose?

xoxo

Bgirly

Should have know you were trouble from the first kiss..

So there's this guy. We'll call him T, for confidentiality reasons of course you understand. We have been friends since Freshman year back in 06'. That's quite a long time in college years..anywho T and I have been great friends since as long as I can remember. Over this past year T has become very friendly and always seems curious as to what I'm up to, and wants to hang out with me. Finally when I caved in this summer and thought 'hell, why not?' then T happened to stumble upon Miss ND..no worries though, the only dated for a few months. This Miss beautiful was then sadly dumped by T. :) hehe her trash is my freakin treasure.

Anyways, over the past few weeks T and I have been spending some time together. My favorite times with T were just laying around my apartment buzzin while drawing stars and ufo's on each other's arms. Then the night came when I met up with him at Dempsey's. He held my hand that night and didn't leave my side. We hopped around town to Rooter's, and then the OB. By the end of the night we started walking to his apartment, he conveniently lives downtown..while there we drank some more and he took me to his kitchen. I sat up on his window ledge overlooking downtown, such a beautiful sight of the city. T was in one of his smart rants regarding molecular biology and other sciences I don't understand. He looked so adorable in that moment, I'll never forget it. I grabed him by the shirt, pulled him close and kissed him. It was the most sensual kiss I have ever experienced. T has such soft lips and knows exactly how to use a little tongue to make the kiss sexier. One thing led to another and the next thing I knew I woke up next to him in bed the morning after. I was turned away from him and he had his arm on my side. I immediately thought, 'what kind of mistake did I just make?'

T put my concerns to rest however, such a gentleman he is. He asked me to stay in bed all afternoon, cuddle and snooze. There's nothing I wanted more in that moment. Since then we've spent some more time together, it's been nice seeing how our friendship has progressed into something more.

However, when something seems to good to be true, it usually is. I don't know if I did something wrong or offensive? T has been ignoring me, and when I contact him he's 'busy' or 'working on homework'...there's only so many times I can be turned down before I loose interest T, watch your step. The last time we were together was Friday, so it's been only five days, but still...if I don't see him within the next few days I'm going to try really hard to forget everything and go back to the way it is.

I hope he doesn't make me forget, I don't want to. I want to remember every touch, kiss, smile and laugh. Whenever I want something so much, it tends to not work out. Why is this! It frustrates me very much.

Here's a shout out to T 'Hey Boy, get your shit together. Ask me on a date, preferably not to get drinks at a bar with all of our friends. Ask me to a nice restaurant, hold my hand, be the gentleman that I know you are. That is all. Oh, and Kiss me Goodnight'

B