Reconnecting with old Roomie

So tonight I'm having dinner with my old roommate M. I'm a little nervous because we haven't spoken really or have seen each other since the end of May.....we kind of went our separate ways. I'm excited to see her though, and catch up over the last two months where we were not in each others lives. It will be nice to see her new place and to hear how her and her boyfriend are doing. Her boyfriend actually introduced me to M the guy I'm kinda with. Her boyfriend P is a super great guy and it will be nice to reconnect with M so we can all hang out again. So we're eating at a mexican restaurant (because I'm so craving a chimichanga or anything of the sort) and having margarita's! (or at least I am) Wish me luck!

On another note, I will be heading off to CO next week to visit M! I'm super pumped about it and cannot wait to be in the beautiful mountains...I bought a couple of new outfits tonight to wear on the trip. A couple pairs of cute colored capri pants. I'll be flying out on a one-way ticket next Thursday and M and I will be driving back home together the following Sunday and Monday. We are staying with his sister in Nebraska on the way back. She is a swimmer at the UNL and can hook us up pretty good it sounds like. Hopefully the long ass car ride will not make M and I get on each other's nerves....

This weekend I'll be going to the Cities with my bia R. It is her birthday (25! so old she says) and there's going to be a group of us going to the basillica block party on fri night, then we'll also hit up valley fair and a twins game. Should be an awesome weekend! Now that I'm 21 of course! I need to make sure that I don't drink a lot of money away........good thing I've mastered flirting with guys so they buy me drinks! HAHA M would not appreciate me writing that...

Have a good week,

xo

b

Missing a boy named M

Today at an appointment while I was talking to one of the nurses I blurted out that I have a boyfriend. It really took me aback because although I said it, it still doesn't mean that I'm ready to call M my boyfriend..I do care about him a lot and want to see where things go, but we've only dated a few short weeks. Earlier this spring I got out of a long time long distance relationship-2 year long to be exact. I thought my world had ended and that there was no way I could possibly live without being with someone. But over the past 4 months since then, I've realized that I am a very independent person and love being single and feeling as though I'm not obligated to please another person. I still haven't quite learned how to manage relationships with guys so that I don't shut everything else out. Lately I've been noticing myself doing just that and it's made me a little edgy....M and I talk on the phone every day for an hour or so, and I need to find a way to tell him without hurting his feelings that we each need our own space too. We can go a few days without talking to one another. I don't know it's just too much too soon. The jets need to be cooled down, I'm feeling a lot of pressure to become a couple and I don't think I'm ready for it. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy talking with M and getting to know him every day, but I'm at a loss of what to do. This weekend I'll be heading to the cities, as M is coming up for a visit from CO where he is working this summer. I'm nervous to drive to the cities, but I know I can do it! I'm staying with my kick-ass auntie C and her kids G and C on Friday night so I know that will be fun! I just hope we can go to dicks...oh how I love dicks. (It's a bar you pervs!) I'll pick M up from the airport Saturday morning and we'll be staying with a couple of his friends for the weekend. This visit will be a good test to see how we react after spending 3 straight days with one another. I hope all goes well, and wish me luck!

xoxo

b