Soooo Tired..

This week has been something else let me tell you....Lots of stress going on with the whole roommate situation, school is getting absolutely annoying with the truckloads of homework I've been doing and it seems like it's gone on for forever. I went to the doc on Monday and he told me it almost seemed like I have pneumonia but then he decided it was bronchitis. So that has been pleasant-feels kind of like asthma in a weird way? But besides the fact that roommate M has made my life a living hell this week, it hasn't been that horrible. Well maybe it has...tonight M actually apologized to me about how she's been treating me-I know strange! I really didn't know what to think or even say....just amazed that she would apologize! It is a big step for her, but I'm not letting her off that easy-she did some pretty mean things to me this week. I mean she ignored me for the past two weeks-the only conversing we did was yelling- she trashed our apartment when her friends were over drinking Tuesday night, I have slept at my sister A's place for the past few nights, and she has been openly stating how much of a bitch I am to put her through this 'horrible situation'. I have read and seen with my own eyes how evil and cruel she can be and I don't think I'm ready to forgive her. It might take quite a while actually. I think we've made progress with the apology and all but not all has been forgiven. Hopefully I can actually be present in my apartment now without feeling anxious that she will come screaming at me at any second...I don't know what to think about it.

Thank goodness I'm going home this weekend. I need a little break from everything here...and it is my little sis E's big prom this weekend! I absolutely cannot wait to help her with everything! I'll even paint her little chewed off fingernails if she wants-it's her day!! I just hope we can paint them another color besides black...hmmm. I love my fam fam they always help me with my troubles and I can't wait to go see them tomorrow!!

I've been at the school's library for the past 5 hours and now I think it's time to go home to bed. But I'm going to pack my bags first, so I can leave right after class tomorrow! I'm soooo excited:)

You all have a great weekend!

loves,

b

Love my sisters!

I just had a really great weekend with all of my sorority sisters! On Friday we had initiation for all of our new members, and had a fun-filled day yesterday as well. In the morning we had a 'fun run' which was a 5k run/walk around our campus. I actually jogged for most of it-surprising I know! I've gotten really out of shape, but this run was good practice since I registered to be in the Fargo Marathon-coming up quick! After the run we had a nice little luncheon with a bunch of our alumni (graduated members of the sorority) and gave out some awards. Then it was time to get ready for our Beta Beta ball! We have this formal every spring and it is so amazing. Each of us are encouraged to take dates-yes we can invite more than two boys if interested-but I unfortunately only had 1 boy to take. haha just kidding, I'm taking it easy with boys right now. Not looking for somebody to date, just taking a break. So I asked my friend J to come with me since some of his friends were going. We had such a blast! I purchased a brand new little strapless cocktail dress, and was so excited that my boobs fit in it. Trust me, when you've got some big girls upstairs and you find a strapless dress that will work, you get excited. So we ate and drank and danced the night away. It was such a blast! We sang a bunch of songs on the bus ride home and I pretty much lost my voice for the rest of the night...it's better today though with the help of the cough drops that make your whole mouth go numb. Super weekend it was. Tonight I'm going to a BBQ at my sister A's friends, should be fun too! I think I'll bring some yummy cookies.

Have a good night everyone!

B

Negative Nancy

I've been having the worst last couple of days! So I finally told my roommate M that I'm moving out June 31st and she blew off the handle! I told her this on Tuesday evening and she slammed the door and walked out, didn't say too much. Then last night when we finally ran into each other at the apt since then, she friggin yelled at me. I have lost all respect for her because of the things she said to me, and I was upset so I yelled back! -Those of you who know me know that I don't yell, it is scary and I don't ever do it. I just wasn't going to let her degrade me and downtalk me without me yelling back! So she said that our friendship is over because I'm moving out, and you know what? I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! Good friends will understand if you can't afford to be living in an apt especially when the rent is going up so high, I just don't understand what the whole attack was about. It just makes her look dumb because she's trying to make me feel guilty for not living with her anymore. And now she's trying to get all of our friends to turn against me-I've talked to some, they think the whole situation is stupid-thank you good friends! I just hope that someday she can act like a mature adult who shows respect to people. Until then, there's not much hope for that girl. Ahhh my first frenamie this should be interesting-especially since I have to live with her until june 31st....at least my 21st birthday is on june 29th and moving out will be the best present ever!

Back to my home roots

My mom's best friend was diagnosed with brain cancer last year, so our whole town decided it would be a great idea to throw a benefit for her and her family. K is an extraordinary woman who is loved by many, so we all decided to give back and help her out with all of the expensive medical bills. The benefit took place at the moondance fairgrounds saloon and it was such a blast! My mom helped plan the shindig and asked my sisters and I if we could help out and of course we said yes! I bet there were over 500 people there last night! There was so many things to do to! There was a silent auction, a live auction, a buffet, a cake walk, a DJ, and so many other cool things! It was so nice to see how all of our community members were so generous and caring towards a special family in our small hometown. The town that we live in consists of just a few over a 1,000 people so if about 600 showed up for the benefit-that's awesome! All of the work is sooo worth it when you see 'K' being so grateful and hugging and loving everyone that attended. I think it would be such an amazing job to plan benefits for a living. Seriously, everybody is so nice and friendly and wants to help out everyone they can. I showed up last night and my mom already signed me up to work. She said 'B you will be doing anything that involves money. So you can sell tickets and take money for the cakewalk! That's what I thought you'd be best at since your a teller and all' I thought that was funny! When I woke up this morning I heard coins clankin on the kitchen table and I thought, oh geeze mom's trying to count all of the cash from last night-might need some help. So I counted the cash and mom added up the checks and then we went to get dougnuts. It's amazing how much a benefit can raise! I was thinking it would raise maybe a few thousand, but it was much more than that! It makes me proud to live/have grown up in such a wonderful town. Everyone here is so amazingly nice and I want to raise my kids in a town like this one. I just love love love my hometown.

I'd like to think I can trust you...

I just had a really great Easter weekend with family! It was so nice to see everybody again, although I wish some other rellies could have joined us..but they were with their fathers' family respectively.

Back to school tomorrow-I don't know if I'm excited or not yet...there's only a handful of weeks left so I need to savor every minute! It definitely wont be the same when everyone leaves for summer.

On to the good stuff...boys. I found out a little inside info on our guy J. He seems kinda like a sleazeball. Damn! It always seems like the guy you just meet seems pretty cool- and then all of the skeletons come out of the closet all at once! Ha It was kind of amusing because I was just waiting to hear a flaw, but it did suck hearing it from one of my girls. She informed me on how he is a playa playa-twice means twice as conniving-and was trying to get into her pants when he had a girlfriend this fall!! Incredibly innapropriate! I am glad that even though my girl K and I may be on the rocks right now, she's still got my back when it comes to little assholes.

Lets talk about a nice little guy. I was supposed to have lunch with R, M and I today-that's right hottie I!- but it fell through. That's ok though there will be plenty of other times to impress I so he asks me out finally! He may be a little shy, so I have to get him to open up! I is kinda of an odd initial to have so we'll call him IA from now on...but anyways he seems like one of the most genuinely nice guys I have come across here at school. Hopefully we can hit it off well, crossing my fingers....I think I just need to take it easy for a while...boy hunting is exhausting and can just be filled with huge disappointment. I'll spend my time concentrating on my last few weeks of school and enjoying my last few times of fun-ness with my girlies, and hopefully by grabbing that president position on the Council for next school year....

Until next time, have a fabulous night...get some sleep....and try to stop filling your mind with boys for a while-might be impossible for me, but good luck to you all!

Just asking for a little respect

So now it is time to introduce you to a little bia in my life. And this is not the kind of 'bia' you want to be..her name is m and she is very different from the rest of us let me tell you. She is disrespectful, rude and ignorant-did I mention she is my only roommate? If it's not about her than she e'ffin doesn't care and it pisses me off! For example, tonight I am coming down with some kind of illness (high fever all day, nauseous, and almost fainted in public..can you say embarrassing!?) and what does she decide to do? Invite her friends over to drink and play scrabble! Eff You M! I just got out of the shower looking like hell, not wearing a bra, and downed three sudafed so I can pass out soon. Not what I want to be dealing with right now...This is why I have been thinking the last couple months that I absolutely need to move out, like asap. I could be living in my car down by the flooding red river and be having a much better home life. haha, probably not but in all actuality living here sucks. So I've been apartment hunting secretly at work and have found some pretty cute one bedroom apartments. You know you're becoming a big girl when you decide to start living alone and you would like it much better than having roommates. I think another thing that bothers me is that I am pretty particular with my living quarters-as in I need to have everything looking the same at all times. I always make my bed and put my dishes in the dishwasher and clean out the fridge regularly. M hardly does any of these things. She is living off of my food, shampoo and postage stamps and I am DONE! I am writing a letter to my landlord tomorrow and delivering it to him. That's just what I'm going to do.HAHA Sorry about all of the ranting and raving, but I just needed to get these feelings of hatred off of my chest..thanks for listening, or rather reading.

Well I am falling asleep at my keyboard the sudafed is started to kick in...hopefully the 'guests' don't come knocking at my bedroom door later for rides home..that would be just the cherry to a fine night I'm having.

Good night, tomorrow will be a brighter day

b

Migranes and Boys..might just go hand in hand

So today I had a free chiropractor appointment set up-after doing sandbagging and getting a free coupon!- and it was all the way across town...but I'm a sucker for a deal so I drove the extra miles to get cracked. I love getting adjusted! It feels so good to get your spine a'crackin and then it just tingles so nice! But I do not like to get my neck adjusted-freaks me out big time! It just seems like your doc will just snap your neck and then bang! you're paralyzed in the next second...it has always freaked me out. Today when it was neck time my dr. asked if I was doing ok? He said it looked like I was in pain-embarrassing.. and I always get light headed afterwards..then my doc went into a long talk about whiplash from car accidents and how it's a big deal and then had me go get x-rays immediatly after my appt. Freak me out even more! I thought my neck was ok? But then he gives me directions to a hole in the wall place that took about 45 minutes to find..and I got hungry so I stopped at Arby's for a ham melt-yummy. Then the guy took four x-ray pics-didn't even give me any protective wear, didn't seem normal-and then gave me the pictures and sent me on my way. The pics look so cool though! I want to hang them up on my window so I can see my spine..weird. Anyways I have some major neck problems after a car accident I was in this summer. I get super bad tension headaches a few times a week and it hurts my neck to move in any direction-like looking around while driving...ouch.

Moving on, I have a huge boy dilemma. When don't I though? A can attest to the fact that I am boy crazy and always have them on my mind. But what annoys the crap out of me is; why do guys only want you when you're already over them?? It's like you meet the guy and start to really like him, and he ignores you the whole time. Then when it's like FU buddy, he comes crawling right back? Why is that? I don't get it! I met J a month ago and he finally wants to hang out-do I even want to now? I don't even know...guys here's the deal-if you want to keep the girl interested than you have to get together/talk/NOT just text within the next week I'd say. Moving on to a boy I just met and still have the hots for.. his name is I and he is sooo attractive. Definitely my 'type' but with more hair and less bushy eyebrows than normal..haha! He is extremely smart-big turn on!- and seems like a very nice down to earth guy. He only has a couple of flaws, but who doesn't right? For one he's very into fitness and eating healthy...nice and all but I worked at DQ for seven friggin years and can't give that up! But I'm becoming lactose intollerant so that is helping a little bit...and another thing, he hates cheese! WHO in their right mind hates cheese?! I have cheese on top of my cheese doritos before I nuke them in the microwave! I don't know if I could handle that....but he is the most attractive man I've ever encountered so maybe I could deal.. I just want him to ask me out! But he broke his phone so he can't get my number..crappy. Give me a call 'I' and ask me out, I might say 'yes' and actually mean it this time;)

Wish me luck for my date tomorrow, I'll be out on the town with J. He's cute and all, but I don't know if I'm all that interested anymore...he'll have to win me over for date two, just saying..

have a good night,

b